Saturday, August 18, 2007

Tides and Tidings of health

I am having an adventure with my body. I suppose there are as many possibilities of what can go wrong with the body as there are stars in the sky. Ligaments and hormones and red blood cells and glands... millions and millions. That many of them should veer from their normal paths all at the same time could be Murphy's Law or it could be argument for the merits of holistic healing. I am not in any serious harm, but there was a cancer scare, a fertility complication scare, a thyroid imbalance and high cholesterol all within 3 weeks.

For the last several months, I have had no plans. I sometimes feel like I am waiting. It is really inconvenient to not have plans. Others would like to make plans and incorporate me, I can only smile and say I don't know, over and over again. And when I meet new people or see old friends, it is awkward to explain myself. I cannot see into my future, not even 18 hours.

My mom has very kindly given me an acupuncture "package". Nice ladies who care a lot (DeAnn Newbold) poke needles into me and chart my progress. My sister Jayme dotes over me and makes me not feel alone, gives me supplements to eat. Sometimes I shell hundreds of dollars to clinics to be subjected to harsh machines and needles.

I am young and full of vitality, just passing through the first of perhaps a few more shadows hinting that my invincibility was a glorious illusion. It is just a small temporary shadow, and I will be back having more boastful adventures soon.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

your words touched me.

you might have experienced it also. its like you have read something, seen something, heard something... then went on.. like almost forgeting about it... AND THEN... some time later... IT COMES... comes like a breath of warm wind... that FLOWS right through me... and stays...

and it is not easy to STAY with this feeling. you know, its like wanting to GET rid of it.. but CAN NOT BECAUSE I NEED THIS FEELING.(as this feeling needs me)

you can write me.
if you would like...

i would,
as a friend...
E.

--
emile.a@hot.ee
(male, 31, estonian by nature, living in Norway, near Bergen)